Disclaimer ;)

When I "accidentally" deleted my first blog I created another one thinking the first one was well, deleted.  I found it again, hence two blogs and a bunch of mixed up dates. I'll be sticking to one from now on I promise and forgive me for my instability or mood swings.  ;)

I think they lost my #

Two auditions in one day??!!  Needless to say I was super excited.  Even more excited because the Saturday before I had taken an intensive commercial class.  Nine and a half hours of intensity.  So when I got the call on Monday I thought, "I got this."  I am ready to apply every bit of information I learned and I will be a Walmart girl even if it kills me.  Hahaha!!  Well no callbacks, none. That's right I said zero and I really don't know how I feel about that. Personally, I think they lost my number ;) It's funny, because one day I'm ready to do this, I'm excited, motivated, ready to take on commercial land and the next I'm like whatever I can do without it.  Fact of the matter is, I can't do without it, I enjoy it, it makes me smile, it challenges me.  What I need to do without is the headtrippin' I put on myself because before you know it, it turns into a pity party for one and that my friends is not fun.  Believe me, I know! 

Cold Busted!!

Have you ever been called out on the rug and you have nothing else to say but "I know, I know." Well that was me this morning.  My most wonderful friend did it to me, but I am so grateful. When I started blogging I said straight out, I've never really worked hard for anything and once it gets tough or I don't feel like doing it anymore I quit.  I told myself and my blog friends that I was not going to quit, I was going to pursue acting and blog about it so that you can follow me on this little journey.  Well, if you've been reading you've probably noticed, or not, that I have deleted my blog twice (hence the 2 blogs).  My excuse to my girl B, it's easier to not do it.  I said it so nonchalantly, like that's what I do, that's how I roll.  She straight called me out, all she had to say was "you said it, it's easier".  My response, "I know, I know."  I totally felt like a kid getting caught with my hand in the cookie jar and having no excuse. It was good though, I liked it, I needed it!  So here I am, again, restarting something I should have never stopped.  Is it easy to sit here and admit that I fail? NO! Do I like it? Of course not, but it's a journey and to learn and grow I must fail, but persevere. Lesson for the day, be truthful and honest but do it with love!! Oh yeah, and don't quit!  By the way I have two auditions today!  You see if I wasn't blogging, you wouldn't know!